“Heroine”
2017

Oh my dear it seems to me we are not what we used to be
I can’t forget the words you said to me
She took your love and she took it home as I headed on a train up North
And time stands still every moment the whistle blows

And now I’m looking back at a memory of my life
I was weathered and worn, I was shattered and sore
Until I heard that whistle cry for me
The sound of freedom was stronger than you could ever be

You slew her down from where she stood, she fell so hard like you knew she would
So why’d you play her as another one to pawn?
So sell her love for all its worth – what will you buy once you have sold
Her heart for pieces of paper and gold?

And now I’m looking back at a memory of my life
I was weathered and worn, I was shattered and sore
Until I heard that whistle cry for me,
The sound of freedom was stronger than you could ever be

And loves ideal it gave me hope – brass and trim and chimney smoke
But you dragged me down the tracks instead
Through memories mirth and miles I go the hills roll by the sky is torn
And time stands still every moment the whistle blows

And I’m looking back at a memory of my life
I was weathered and worn, I was shattered and sore 
Until I heard that whistle cry for me
The sound of freedom was stronger
The sound of freedom was strong
The sound of freedom was stronger than you could ever be….

Do you really wanna see the things I’ve seen?
Do you really wanna know what they did to me?
Ain’t how it’s supposed to be, how it’s supposed to be…no, no
Things aren’t always the way they seem

Cause there’s no reason to this rhyme
I’m still standing and I don’t know why
I might just go ahead and lose my mind this time

It’s been years, it’s been days
I’m just trying to find my way through the haze
And every cigarette’s a burning secret – try to put it out
Every light holds a lie that fuels the flame

Cause there’s no reason to this rhyme
I’m still standing and I don’t know why
I might just go ahead and lose my mind this time
this time

Cause there’s no reason to this rhyme
I’m still standing and I don’t know why
I might just go ahead and lose my mind this time

Intrude upon my lips, colored in rouge
Your hands upon my hips when I left you
I remember you even when I don’t want to
Oh, and I still miss your touch even when i’ve had enough

I’m stuck, in this game of love and lust
You don’t burn your bridges they just rust
And though I tried so hard to trust
You just, play your tricks on me

Put me on your shelf and pick up someone else
I’m under your spell – I can’t help myself
And I remember you, even when i don’t want to
And i still miss your touch even when I’ve had enough

I’m stuck, in this game of love and lust
You don’t burn your bridges they just rust
And though I tried so hard to trust
You just, play your tricks on me
Play your tricks on me

Cause love is the touch is the stuff that i need
Come on baby won’t you give it to me
Lust is the touch is the stuff that you need
But you were just playing tricks on me

Been waiting on you to come back home, to fix what we broke
Been walking on a wire, set myself on fire, nothing left but smoke
I wonder what you’re doing, but I already know

This love is a ghost, haunting this house
holding my heart and burning it down
I crumble alone, looking for hope
in the ashes of this home
I wonder what you’re doing, but I already know

Gotta get out of this town, throw all my doubts, out the window of my car
Like hell i keep driving, toward that bright horizon, take me out of the dark
Still wonder what you’re doing, guess I already know

This love is a ghost, haunting this house
holding my heart and burning it down
I crumble alone, looking for hope
in the ashes of this home
I wonder what you’re doing, but I already know

It’s time to hit the highway
Gonna leave it all behind

That love was a ghost, it haunted that house
It held my heart and burned to the ground
I crumbled alone, looking for hope
in the ashes of that home
Could wonder what you’re doing, but this time I won’t

Barrel lookin’ at me in the eye
Pistol pointed, my hands are tied
And all the things I’ve done caught up this time
I never learned to try, just told some damn good lies

And now I’m under the gun, I’m under the gun
I’ve got nowhere to run, nowhere to run this time 
And I hear you coming closer, your shadow over my shoulder

Sun sinking slowly into the ground
One of us is bound to be the first one down
But you won’t hear a move I make when we meet face to face

Now i’m under the gun, under the gun
I’ve got nowhere to run, nowhere to run this time
And Ii hear you coming closer, your shadow over my shoulder

You think I’m done, but we have just begun
And I’ve got you right where you belong
Your eyes aligned with the barrel of my gun

Cause now you’re under the gun, you’re under the gun
Now you’re under the gun, you’re under the gun
And I hear you coming closer
My shadow’s over your shoulder
Now you’re under the gun, under the gun

Stall by the wayside
I hear you as you’re coming back for me
Pale gray skies over rusted fields
Ain’t pretty but they’re all I see

The open road consoles my soul
The only remedy I’ve ever known
We can’t foresee what’s meant to be
Give up each other to save the other

And I won’t fall away again
My heart is my own heroine
I won’t fall away this time
And I won’t be a victim of my weakness
I’m above my sin
And I must keep moving on

Out of luck, on the edge time
I hear my future calling out to me
So into the arms of another is where I’ve placed our memories

And I’ll be gone
But not for long
Be strong for now, my dear so long

And I won’t fall away again
My heart is my own heroine
I won’t fall away this time
And I won’t be a victim of my weakness
I’m above my sin
And I must keep moving on

And I’ll be gone
But not for long
Be strong for now, my dear so long

I disappear, you disagree
We wouldn’t have wound up here if it were up to me
I don’t wanna know, you don’t wanna see
It’s getting hard to make believe

You say the words I wanna hear
You know what it takes to keep me here
My hands are tied, my heart is tattered and torn and
The rain can’t wash away this storm

Don’t have to talk, don’t have to cry
Don’t have to tell me it’ll be alright
Drop after drop, lie after lie
I’ll always fall for you every time

You say the words I wanna hear
You know what it takes to keep me here
My hands are tied, my heart is tattered and torn and
The rain can’t wash away this storm

Take my hand, the good and the bad
We’ll get by with what we have
Stars won’t shine in the light
Let’s get through tonight

You say the words I wanna hear
You know what it takes to keep me here
My hands are tied, my heart is tattered and torn and
The rain can’t wash away this storm

One more round of doubles and I’m headed for the door
It’s never the last shot and it’s never just one more
On the rocks, intoxicated by the comfort and the burn
Shades of gold and amber like it was the first
And I say ooh, he’s got whiskey in his eyes
Ooh, makes it hard to say goodnight
Ooh, don’t know how, I don’t know why
It must be whiskey in his eyes

Every look that lingers gets me a little more gone
In your eyes I realize I’m barely hangin’ on
Cause every taste is stronger every time it hit my lips
With every little drop and every little kiss

And I say ooh, he’s got whiskey in his eyes
Ooh, makes it hard to say goodnight
Ooh, don’t know how, I don’t know why
It must be whiskey in his eyes

With every little drop and every little kiss

And I say ooh, he’s got whiskey in his eyes
Ooh, makes it hard to say goodnight
Ooh, don’t know how, I don’t know why
It must be whiskey in his eyes

This is the day I choose to walk alone
Where i’ll be tomorrow I just don’t know
I keep on walking with no place in mind
But it’s hard to forget what i’ve left behind

It was my only, my only way out
Nothing more to say, so I left without a sound
You know I hate to leave, but I gotta do what’s best for me
So I took my own way out

It wasn’t hard to see the walls coming down around me
And look what’s left of us now
When love is like an empty glass 
And I’m too tired to pick up the pieces of our past
It was my only, my only way out
Nothing more to say, so I left without a sound
You know I hate to leave, but I gotta do what’s best for me
So I took my own way out